No halo for me ….but a break for sure !

I should have probably written a poem but have been too tired ( thinking , thinking , thinking ) to do that . So , I ‘ll post a song instead by Tracy Chapman ( again !!!!) .

I don’t have a halo or a white robe and am definitely not an angel . Am just perfectly human , with my strengths and weaknesses , my fears and follies , my smiles and tears and lots of madness ! I need a few peaceful nights !

My dad always told me I was too naïve and I should learn to lie sometimes, to hide what I really feel and not wear my heart on my sleeve. It’s never too late to learn , no ? Until I learn a little of that , I’ll be on a break .. a month or more may be …no mishmash in your reader and I may not be able to like all the wonderful posts I have been enjoying ! I will try though .See you on the other side lovelies !!!

Nee ,Chev , K , Sonia , Aishwarya , Ishu, ,Freda , Loretta , Erhynireh , Nitin , Thee Raj ( hahah) and all those who’ve given this blog so much love and support …..hope you guys are still around when I am back 🙂 Love and hugs

Unsung Psalm

There would be psalms sung by a choir
I would have a white robe a halo newly acquired
I’d be at peace and I’d have no desire
If I’d lived right

There would be cherubs with tiny harps arrows and bows
I’d have a halo and a flowing white robe
I’d be enfolded by a celestial light
If I’d lived right

But I’m feeling hot and bothered under the collar
I feel the sweat breaking out on my brow
I feel the heat and I know it’s the passion
The love I can’t disavow

If this is a dream wake me up now
If this is a movie let’s edit these scenes out
It would be a PG instead of an X-rated life
If I’d lived right

Some would call me a cheat call me a liar
Say that I’ve been defeated by the basest desired
Yes I have strayed and succumbed to my vices
But I tried to live right

But I have no regrets no guilt in my heart
I only feel sadness for any pain that I’ve caused
I guess I wouldn’t bother to worry at all
If I’d lived right

Do you live by the book do you play by the rules?
Do you care what is thought by others about you?
If this day is all that is promised to you
Do you life for the future the present the past?

If there is one thing I know I know I will die
If anyone cares some stranger may critique my life
I may be revered or defamed and decried
But I tried to live right

There would be psalms sung by a choir
I would have a white robe a halo newly acquired
I’d be at peace and I’d have no desire
If I’d lived right

— that mishmash

 

Words don’t come easily ….

There are times when words that seem easy to say are the most difficult to utter. If only we could find the right words at the right time ….

Tracy Chapman’s song says it all …

 

“Baby Can I Hold You”

Sorry
Is all that you can’t say
Years gone by and still
Words don’t come easily
Like sorry like sorryForgive me
Is all that you can’t say
Years gone by and still
Words don’t come easily
Like forgive me forgive me

But you can say baby
Baby can I hold you tonight
Maybe if I told you the right words
At the right time you’d be mine

I love you
Is all that you can’t say
Years gone by and still
Words don’t come easily
Like I love you I love you

But you can say baby
Baby can I hold you tonight
Maybe if I told you the right words
At the right time you’d be mine

— that mishmash

Cortege

In a rainbow coloured casket

she looked prettier than ever

her hair untamed , as always

the ivory gown ditched for her black lace dress

and the unusual cortege followed…

Broken toys and shattered dreams

crumpled letters and crushed petals

torn sheets and ripped pillows

incomplete music sheets and a broken guitar

there were words drowned in puddles of tears

wounds that walked like proud trophies

duvets that had kept her warm on cold nights

a cracked mirror that once mocked her

an ugly truth that had been cloaked for long

sultry dresses and a siren song

masks she’d worn and butterflies she’d chased

pictures of the one she’d secretly embrace

Balloons released and bubbles blown

as each of them went down with her

mirthful tunes filled the air

and the dark clouds could finally disappear .

— that mishmash

 

 

Don’t fear for me

I used to sit by the shore

building sand castles

distant from the currents

with those who said they cared.

Some dived into the ocean

and swam beyond the horizon

others walked with me

listening to my stories

and telling me theirs

until I drove them away.

Some kissed and caressed

like the sea breeze , others

were afraid of my weather-beaten face.

Then one day I disrobed

my shame , guilt and fears left on the verge

the ocean embraced me

dancing as I sang wild songs

consuming my tears , cleaning my wounds

Barren and bare , I didn’t fear anymore.

Some swim alongside, then they leave

but the pain ebbs with the tide.

Don’t fear for me , swim with me

if you wish to , but don’t fear for me

Don’t fear for me , swim with me

for as long as you want to , but don’t fear for me.

— that mishmash

Who needs tomorrow ?

We’ve got tonight !

It’s been a lovely weekend and I have to end it with a song that I love listening to, it’s called ‘We’ve got tonight’.

I prefer Kenny Roger’s duet with Sheena Easton to the one with Dolly Parton .

Enjoy !

We’ve Got Tonight”
I know it’s late
I know you’re weary
I know your plans
Don’t include me
Still here we are
Both of us lonely
Longing for shelter
From all that we see
Why should we worry
No one will care girl
Look at the stars now
So far away
We’ve got tonight
Who needs tomorrow
We’ve got tonight, babe
Why don’t you stay

Deep in my soul
I’ve been so lonely
All of my hopes fading away
I’ve longed for love
Like everyone else does
I know I’ll keep searching after today

So there it is girl
I’ve said it all now
And here we are, babe
What do you say
We’ve got tonight
Who needs tomorrow
We’ve got tonight, babe
Why don’t you stay

I know it’s late
And I know you’re weary
I know your plans
Don’t include me
Still here we are
Both of us lonely
Both of us lonely
We’ve got tonight
Who needs tomorrow
Let’s make it last
Let’s find a way
Turn out the light
Oooooh-ho, come take my hand now
We’ve got tonight, babe
Why don’t you stay
Why don’t you stay

— that mishmash

Siren Song

Tonight let her satin dress

fall in a pool around her feet

where your worries can drown.

Tonight unbottle her gently

to taste her lips of wine

and sip all you like as the night goes by.

Tonight make her quiver

as your breath floats over her skin

and your hands glide over her contours.

Tonight be the inviting ocean

that draws her unshrinking steps

deeper and deeper into you , to be consumed.

— that mishmash ( This one has been in the drafts for sometime. Thought I’d finally post it)

 

Letting you in

I let you in on dusky secrets

through the splits in the door

I let you seep into the depths of my being

through every wistful pore

I let  you in on remnants of love

salvaged from the wreck

I let you into my world , deeply ingrained

knowing I was no more than a speck

I hold on to that dreamy night

as if it were all true

I let you in , I wish I knew

how to just let go of you.

— that mishmash